Waiting for Dawn on Monday

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful to be up early today.
2. I'm grateful for a new Bible. This one is NRSV which is the version my Episcopalian son reads.
3. I'm grateful for a bed. Now, if I could just get more comfortable sleeping in it!
4. I'm grateful for a new person to help me with yard work.
5. I'm grateful for the elimination of brambles on my driveway fence.
Plan for the day:
1. Bible study. I need to put the Lord first.
2. Make potato salad because I dreamed of it a few mornings ago.
3. Clean out the refrigerator.
4. Put yarns in the empty box.
5. Retrieve the drill.
Currently reading:
1. Psalms, Gospel of John
2. Area 51, by Annie Jacobsen
3. The Egg and I, by Betty MacDonald
4. Brave Intuitive Painting, by Flora Bowley
5. The World of Urban Sketching, by Stephanie Bower
6. Clinging to Hope, by Charles Swindoll

Here's how my day is going: I am happy to be awake, happy to be alive, and ready for a new day. It is really very early - almost 3am. I don't usually wake up this early but after the excitement of yesterday (church and then the new gardener) and no nap yesterday, I went to sleep exceptionally early (for me). I hear the wind blowing things around outside. Today rain is expected all day and the weather app says there's "light rain" out there, right now. I'm feeling insulated, living inside a house now.

All Better Now? We Need to Keep On Praying!

Gratitudes:
1. Sooo very grateful Trump was reelected President yesterday! Thank you Americans. I want him as President because he's a great businessman and may be able to resolve some of the terrible debt problems of the USA. I personally don't like to be in debt and don't like my country to be in debt either. This problem needs to be fixed by someone who knows how to work with money.
2. I'm grateful for my newly purchased devotional, New Morning Mercies, by Paul David Tripp. I've used it a few days now and find it very helpful.
3. I'm grateful for an entire day to be home alone. I thrive on having time to be home alone. Already I've put more paint on my work-in-progress which is a lady (from imagination) standing next to a tree and rosebush.
4. I'm grateful for my new Melitta Coffee Pot.. 8 cup size. I needed it to be able to make multiple cups for my Bible study guests.
5. I'm grateful for the weekly Bible studies. It is such a treat to have several women over to talk to about God and Jesus! Of course like all normal women, we also go off topic at times.
Plan for the day:
1. Open the folding chair boxes.
2. Put together the little shelf.
3. White board.
4. Move blue chairs to back of house.
5. New video.
Currently reading:
1. Area 51, by Annie Jacobsen
2. New Morning Mercies
3. Luke, Psalm 92, 2 Samuel, Gospel of John
4. True Story, by Michael Finkel

Here's how my day is going: So far it is 12:30pm... I'm happy, writing to people, took a nice shower, and am doing a load of laundry that is now in the dryer. I have a great pot of coffee made and am drinking a cup of it. Really, it seems like life is going along just about as well as could be expected. I'm not having a post-election freak-out because my preference for President was elected (Thank You God!!!!!) ...and my day book (planner) is getting written in which is a pretty good indication that I'm doing well mentally today (clarity, no brain fog, etc.).

As I mentioned in the subject line for this posting, we need to keep praying now, especially during this transition time between the election and the inauguration day. I want to pray for those who are disappointed with this choice of President, that they will accept the defeat and feel the presence of God comforting them and helping them through the adjustment back to a more conservative White House staff.

God bless us all!

Voting Day 2024

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful for books. They are so entertaining!
2. I'm grateful for that new big screen TV I bought.
3. I'm grateful for water, especially Crystal Geyser spring water from Mt. Shasta.
4. I'm grateful for prayers. Imagine that: God wants to hear from us!
5. I'm grateful for my new car. Now I can take my friend /and/ her husband places while her car is being repaired.
Plan for the day:
1. Painting - I'm working on foilage surrounding a woman standing there breathing in the garden fragrances, with her eyes closed.
2. I still need to hang up that second white board.
3. And I still need to build the little shelf.
4. Create a new video.
5. Take my friend and her husband with me to go to the polling place, to vote.
Currently reading:
1. Area 51, by Annie Jacobsen
2. The Bible: Gospel of John, a Psalm, and 2 Samuel 1
3. New Morning Mercies, by Paul David Tripp (a devotional)
4. Procrastination, by June Hunt
5. True Story, by Michael Finkel
6. Brave Intuitive Painting, by Flora Bowley

Here's how my day is going: I just woke up and don't have much to say except I'm happy to be alive and happy that I remembered to pray first thing after sitting up this morning. I want to be the kind of Christian who puts God first in my mind at all times. How else can we remember to call on Him immediately when we're sensing danger? I told this to my granddaughter last time I talked to her when I was still living in the trailer: "Always remember to call on the name of Jesus whenever you feel frightened." I said that because I know she gets frightened easily. She needs the Lord and she loves Him. Now I'm praying for her protection and that she has a good life, not a messed up life like mine has been. Enough of that. Alls well that ends well, and I found Jesus in North Idaho when I was 61 years old. Better late than never.

I got help from YouTube in filling out my ballot. I knew who to vote for, for the most part. A few of the candidates I wasn't familiar with (state reps for the northstate area I live in) and I found candidate statements from them on video. Also the California Insider had a man on explaining the pros and cons of ballot propositions, and I appreciate he was only explaining them, and not telling me which way to vote, or even how he intended to vote. That helped me make up my own mind on how to do it. I have the ballot all filled out now and will just drop it off at the polling place this afternoon.

I thought I was going to have to drive out of here today to the great civilization to the east, but my friend's car isn't ready to pick up at the car dealership in Ashland, so we're waiting. A part had to be ordered and she doesn't know when that car will be ready. In the meantime I am happy to be able to give her rides when she needs them.

Relearning Scrivener and Planning Another Video

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful for coffee. 'Nuff said. I know there are a lot of people who agree with me on this one.
2. Monday mornings! They're awesome, despite what some people say or sing.
3. I got a new car. Worth mentioning, I think.
4. I finally chose a book to read during Nonfiction November.
5. Friends!! I enjoyed my Sunday, yesterday, being with them at church and at the Pizza House.
Plan for the day:
1. Paint a little on each unfinished canvas.
2. Hang up the second white board. I have one in the art studio and will hang the second in the hallway.
3. Find a place for blue chairs in the art studio.
4. Assemble a small shelf for the second bathroom.
5. Study voting literature and fill out my ballot.
6. Make a new Booktube video.
Currently reading:
1. True Story: Murder, Memoir, Mea Culpa, by Michael Finkle
2. The Gospel of John
3. Les Miserables, by Victor Hugo
4. Area 51, by Annie Jacobsen, chapter one
5. Brave Intuitive Painting, by Flora Bowley, pp. 49-53
6. Psalm 90, 2 Samuel 1...

Here's how my day is going: I've barely started the day and it is past noon and I'm not truly looking foward to driving out of town again this week. But today I'm at home and happy to be here. I have home projects to complete and I really need to make another Booktube video.

Today I was studying the tutorial for using Scrivener software. I've had Scrivener for about ten years so a lot of this was review for me, and some of it was a reminder of features I'd forgotten about and haven't been using. I'd like to get back into my writing hobby and so as part of that I'll be using Scrivener and want this study as a refresher course.

While doing the Scrivener tutorial I found a page of "Booktube Gratitudes" I wrote way back when (?) and I'd like to put that page into video format. I might combine that with another topic. Maybe not.

A Quiet Sunday At Home... Until Something Crashed

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful for a quiet Sunday.
2. I'm grateful for online church services.
3. I'm grateful for a great book to read.
4. I'm grateful I finally decided what to rename my home-type YouTube channel.
5. I'm grateful for the letters and art Vincent Van Gogh left to us.
Plan for the day:
1. Put things together. (sewing table, storage cart, ladder)
2. Make a smoothie in my new blender.
3. Start a new painting.
4. Read more of the Jo Van Gogh memoir.
5. Sort out a few papers - file or trash them.
Currently reading:
1. A Memoir of Vincent Van Gogh, by Jo Van Gogh Bonger
2. The Great Bridge, by David MacCullough
3. Bible: Psalms, Romans
4. Brave Intuitive Painting, by Flora Bowley

Here's how my day is going:

I woke up early, ready to start the day after a remarkable 8 and 1/2 hours of sleep. So unusual for me! I watched the church service of North Country Chapel in Post Falls, Idaho... where I was saved in 2013. I still like listening to Pastor Bob, though I live considerably further south now, near the border of Oregon and California. Next I listened to the local church service but there were some buffering problems on Facebook so I decided to listen to it later, rather than trying to continue with the livestream.

I cleaned the kitchen and did some laundry, and read for a while in the memoir about Van Gogh. Then I heard a crash in the back room. I apprehensively walked to the back of the hallway and saw that my plein air easel had fallen over. One of the legs was not tightly bolted enough, and had collapsed. It looked like a big mess but was fairly easy to clean up as it turned out. The paints and brushes that had fallen onto the floor were quickly cleaned and everything put back together inside ten minutes.

My hope today is to start a painting using the prompts in the book, Brave Intuitive Painting.

Lost Time & Catching Up

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful for the house I'm now living in.
2. I'm grateful for the books I have to read.
3. I'm grateful for my friends, both online and IRL.
4. I'm grateful for my vision and hearing.
5. I'm grateful that I own a Bible.
Plan for the day:
1. Organize the back of the van.
2. Painting red flowers on green canvas paper.
3. Journaling in a pink Leuchtturm 1917, in ink; topic: what good am I, to anyone?
4. Cutting down some weeds.
5. Blessing the land I live on, with prayer.
Currently reading:
1. Perestroika in Paris, by Jane Smiley
2. Brave Intuitive Painting, by Flora S. Bowley
3. The World of Urban Sketching, by Stephanie Bower
4. Les Misérables, by Victor Hugo
5. One of my old journals (transcribing)
6. The Bible: Genesis 37, Psalm 71, Romans 15, 1 Corinthians 1.

Here's how my day is going:

Prior to taking my shower I researched folk art and hay fever. There's no time like the present for finding out more about how life works. I found out my antihistimine, Zyrtec, is approved for daily use, for people like me with allergies that never stop. I usually take Zyrtec just before sleeping because there's nothing more disturbing than waking up with a hay fever attack in the middle of the night. I don't need that kind of distress. However I've also discovered that Zyrtec can cause drowsiness which kind of explains my frequent napping as of late - two or three naps a day. That's too much. I'm 72 and don't think there's anything wrong with a nap at my age but when I spend most of the day napping, I feel robbed of my daylight waking hours!

Retrospective:

My lost time on this blog includes the entire last year and a little more. So let me catch you up on how my life is going. In May of 2023 when I last posted I was still living in a 30' travel trailer borrowed from the local tribe of Native Americans. Nice trailer, and I did my best to keep it nice though I lived in it for three years: 12/2020 to 12/2023. The man who picked it up was obviously surprised when he entered it because it looked nearly new still, at first glance. I've heard many if not most of the other trailers he recovered for the tribe were totally trashed inside. Sad but true. Travel trailers are not built to be lived in long term. Many people in my community got these borrowed trailers because our homes burned in a 2020 forest fire. The tribe didn't want half the community to move away from our small town because we were suddenly homeless.


I applied for help from a housing grant and in August 2023 building commenced on a two bedroom home here on my property. Or was it in September? I can't quite recall. Anyhow, from then until late December I had builders on this property and the happy result is a pretty green two-bedroom fire-recovery home. Two bedrooms are plenty for me. I have a room for sleeping and a room for art-making that I call my day room, and a great room with a kitchen in the corner, and two bathrooms and a laundry room. What old single woman could need anything more? I also have my 10x12 shed out back. It holds everything I don't want to put into the house. I like that. It helps keep the house uncluttered.


The builders finished and occupancy was approved by the county on December 21. I was able to move into my new home right before Christmas!


Living in a house again has been wonderful and amazing for me. My art is blossoming. I'm getting a lot of reading done. Furnishing has been a problem but recently my brother brought me my mom's dining table and chairs, so I really do have plenty. My reading chair is a plastic Adirondack chair with padding. Quite comfortable, really.


So, I don't know why I quit writing on this blog last year. I think things just got to be "too much" for me and there was some depression going on during the final stretch of trailer living. House living is so much better for me.


I've created a lot of new art since I moved into the house. Here's what my art studio (in the day room) looks like today.

Rainy Day Notes

Gratitudes:
1. I'm so grateful for the rain today.
2. I'm grateful 4 of my Nasturtium seeds are sprouting!
3. I'm grateful I did my Bible study first thing in the morning today.
4. I'm grateful for the inspiration of God. Looking forward to more of that.
5. I'm grateful for a cup of coffee.
Plan for the day:
1. Clean off my art desk.
2. Stay inside and stay warm.
3. Finish another book.
4. Create a watercolor picture in my sketchbook.
5. Rearrange art supplies.
Currently reading:
1. Medieval Woman, by Ann Baer
2. Hornblower During the Crisis, by CS Forester
3. An Eye For Art, by the National Gallery of Art
4. The Healing Light, by Agnes Sanford
5. Purpose in Prayer, by EM Bounds
6. Foxe's Book of Martyrs, by John Foxe

Here's how my day is going:

I woke up early after only three and a half hours of sleep. That is good. I've been waking up too late during the past few weeks. I need to start getting up early, early, early again because springtime is here and I need to water the garden and work on my art in the soon-to-be shed before noon. I think in the afternoons this summer it will be too hot to work in the shed and I'll have to come back to the trailer where I have an air conditioner. All good.

You can tell I'm really looking forward to that shed, right? Only a few more weeks now until my building dates. I need to prepare the ground more... the site where I want the shed isn't quite level. Also I'd like to get some gravel to put under it.

I'm really so happy my Nasturtium seeds have started to sprout. I planted those with Aurora's help about two weeks ago. I dug the holes and she put in the seeds and covered them. We worked great together. I put them in the three wooden barrel planters I bought from Amazon. We put three seeds in the smallest, four in the medium sized planter, and then five in the largest. So far we've got four seedlings. Right now they're being pounded by rain.

YouTube Community Response Discouragement

Gratitudes:
1. I'm grateful I was able to create this art... I call it My Leprechaun.
2. I am grateful for more rain today. It gives me a chance to rest indoors.
3. I am grateful I was able to work a little in the garden before the rain started. It should be raining the rest of the day.
4. I am grateful for my quiet time.
5. I am grateful for my Bible study time.
Plan for the day:
1. Read "The Lost One" - a short story by Mary Stewart.
2. Watch another episode of The Chosen.
3. Clear off my art desk. Then use it.
4. Listen to the raindrops falling on the roof of my travel trailer.
5. Talk on camera for five minutes. Maybe more.
Currently reading:
1. Bible: Psalm 75, Deuteronomy 10, Luke 7:11-17.
2. The Forest Feast, Mediterranean, by Erin Gleeson
3. The Power of Praying for Your Adult Children, by Stormie Omartian
4. A Passage to India, by E.M. Forster
5. The Healing Light, by Agnes Sanford
6. Life Lessons From James, by Max Lucado

Here's how my day is going:

I'm very happy with progress made on the side-yard transformation project. There's a lot more to be done. So far I've installed six bags of wood mulch and six bags of garden soil. There's a lot more left out in the van. Little by little, day by day. This is how I will get the work done.

Now I want to write about my video making hobby. I've been doing this for 9 years already. It is clear and apparent that I'm not successful at it. Many other Booktubers overlook my channel. I subscribe to them and watch their videos and leave nice comments. They do not reciprocate. Some do, but rarely. A few I see comments from regularly, like whenever I publish a video. But for the most part, they don't reciprocate and I put out a lot more energy and goodwill than I receive back.

It is discouraging after a while. I like the idea of extending goodwill and friendship gratis, but in practice, it wears me down. I've been doing this for nine years and still don't have 1000 subscribers. Many other, normally much younger people, have over 1000 subscribers and have only done this a year or two.

Obviously, I have not been able to create a successful or popular channel. I'm discouraged and feel like quitting. The only reason I don't is that this is my hobby and I still like to make videos. I just wish I could stop caring about community response.