Emotional Setbacks and Unsafe Schools

I have to admit I'm not doing well right now. There have been too many emotional setbacks this month... including some things that are so personal I cannot even write about them on this blog.

My foot that has had pain since last winter has been better since I got the anti-inflammatory shot on the 21st of last month, but still sometimes the pain returns. That's a great disappointment, and I hope I don't have to go back for another shot because I have no insurance. (Long story... I don't even remember if I wrote about that on this blog already.)

Anyhow, I'm not getting as many pages written for my income producing blogs as I wish I was. I really need to do more on that.

I think I do better when I'm using my Synergy powder, but I haven't even had my act together to use that regularly lately.

There's just too much going on. The terrible news about the shooting at the Oregon college this week really upset me... that is part of the emotional tailspin I'm in. I love that area... and at one point was trying to move to that little town in the hills, upriver, where the professor lived, before he was killed in his classroom. It is so disturbing when something like this happens. I feel things deeply and internalize the pain of those who are grieving.

Then I found out that the day before, several boys at Summerville High School planned to do the same thing... but someone reported it and their plan was thwarted. That high school name jumped out at me. I immediately knew where it was because I used to live there in Tuolumne City. Summerville High School is on the hill just outside town, along the road to Sonora, CA. It is so disturbing that a group of small town boys living in a beautiful historic gold prospecting town were thinking of killing people at their school.

I am totally against the idea that more gun control is needed. I believe what's needed is more armed security guards at the schools. Either that, or close the schools down. Every time I saw that school administrator for Umpquah College proudly say it was a "gun free zone" I felt sick at heart. If there had been armed security guards nearby, the gunman wouldn't have killed so many people. But due to her idea of having a gun free zone, it went on and on until nine people were dead.

And people wonder why I didn't want to send my kids to school? It is obvious: the schools aren't safe. They weren't safe for my children when they were young, and it is getting worse all the time. Sending children to school is looking more like child neglect. If a school can't protect the kids, they shouldn't be there.

Taking guns away from honest citizens means that only criminals and the government will have guns. I can't see where that would be a benefit for the rest of us. Criminals would have a heyday preying on people then, knowing that nobody law-abiding would be armed.

True Story

I was up early yesterday - about 3am to be exact - so by late afternoon I thought it might be cool to go get a little nap. I was in bed about fifteen minutes when I heard on my boyfriend's scanner that there was a 14-year-old juvenile detained for shoplifting at the local market (there's only one market here).

Naturally the only family member not at home was my 14-year-old son. I didn't think it would be Aaron because my son has a habit of being honest (albeit a bit too blunt sometimes) but I never think about him doing criminal things because he's just not that way. However I remembered how I was as a teenager and realized even good kids (was I one?) could get in trouble... and of course if it was my son I wanted to be there for him.

So I got up and drove down to the market and did some shopping while wondering when the deputy would leave with the suspect so I could see who it was. Fortunately it wasn't my son and the boy involved was released to his parent. However during the time I was at the store my neighbors were shopping there too.

Now... the backstory on these neighbors is that they moved here last summer and right away were friendly but complaining about everything including our landlady who I dearly love. It didn't take too long before I was given a notice by my landlady containing a list of things I should correct concerning my yard. My new neighbor was of course complaining about us at the same time she was complaining about everything else.

After that I avoided our neighbors one-hundred-percent, completely. I stay busy and don't have time for head trips like that. I figured I wouldn't want to tell her anything about my life because she'd eventually turn against me. Unfortunately my boyfriend has a short memory and soon was going over there constantly for friendship and good times, whatever. I don't tell the man what to do even though sometimes I see trouble coming and work to avoid it myself.

Well, according to him the neighbors argue a lot and when they start their bickering and insulting of each other he leaves. The woman is mentally ill and doesn't want to take all her bipolar meds because she doesn't want to get overweight. She also told another friend of ours that I was packing a meth lab into my car one day (it was really just some boxes of old books I wanted to give away). I don't use drugs other than prescribed by my nurse practitioner so I didn't see any humor in this.

So anyhow - tonight I saw them in the store and for the first time in almost six months I said hi to her. But guess what. When I got home I was met by my boyfriend at the door. He said when they got home he went over there to visit and she threw him out because according to her I was down at the store with the deputy and Kevin (another neighbor) and apparently she thought we were all out to get her somehow. I never even talked to the deputy while I was there! She also said I was taking pictures. Again, that's wrong... I didn't even have my camera with me. But because I saw them at the store my boyfriend is now expelled from her house as a suspicious character. Strange, earlier in the day they were good friends laughing and having a good time together.

My boyfriend also tells me there's a rumor going around that the brother of our former neighbor is now in jail because I was down at the river taking photos of him while he was doing some illegal poaching. I'd like to see the proof of that. The truth is I liked the guy, I don't run around taking people's pictures so I can snitch on them, and I had no knowledge of him doing anything illegal before he was arrested.

I knew before that my neighbor was bipolar. Now I think she's schizophrenic too. I wish she'd get her meds straightened out and take them regularly. If she did she'd be such a nice person to be around.