Who You Are is Who I Am

I'm going to use this space to sound off today. Yes, I feel a rant coming on.

First, I want to emphasize that my world is a reflection of what I am.

That guy across the room who I invited into my life space is a part of me.

So if I complain about him, I'm complaining about me.

If I criticize him, I'm criticizing a part of myself because obviously, I wanted him here for some reason. He completed me and I just had to have him.

Why do we do these things to ourselves?

We're here to learn.

It isn't always easy, nor should it be.

We learn more from what pains us than from fun and games.

So, take your pick.

I obviously chose to learn from various types of suffering... but today I'm calling one particular suffering out... and that is abandonment.

Yes, abandonment.

I've been abandoned repeatedly during this lifetime, and it has happened again.

There have been times I was abandoned due to no fault of my own except my own unenlightened non-seeing of reality. There have been other times I was abandoned because I had a meltdown.

Gosh, how imperfect can I get?

But eventually you have to see that the meltdowns, the bad, the negatives, the mistakes you make, the errors, the pathetic imperfections - they are all part of the learning process.

From this you / I / we become the people we were intended to be.

These errors are the food of wisdom.

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I have two predictions today.

(1) During 2013 we will totally recover from our fear of 2012, and

(2) During 2013 we will collectively work much more enthusiastically on creating a better future for the creatures of this planet.

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Abandoned into Abundance
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Now we as human beings must remember........... we are not alone.

We are togetherness personified.

We are human beings. A group. You could say, a soul group. A cluster.

Related.

When we get angry at someone else it is the same as getting angry at a part of ourselves.

When a part of ourselves abandons us... it means you can learn more from that pain than from the part that left.

The pain becomes part of you instead.

The loss becomes part of you.

And from that, new wisdom blooms.

Your heart is opened a little wider.

You become the amazing being you were intended to be.

Goodbye old friends. Hello new me.

What an amazing blessing!

Bewilderment Avenue

Remember that road sign... Linda Jo Highway? (See two posts below this one). Well, I think I've already come to Bewilderment Avenue. It happened like this. My daughter finally got a blog going this year. I will not give you the link because its a privacy issue. But I'm happy to say she's been writing extensively and I'm very proud of her somewhat profane efforts.

Anyhow, she managed to get the attention of her father (who hasn't seen her since she was three months old) and her paternal grandmother. So after about a month of visiting her site he finally started emailing and imailing with her. She was happy about that. Then a few days later he started badmouthing me and saying he wanted to sue me because he thought the kids weren't educated well enough. This quick judgment call was based on him quizzing her in imail on what she knew about World War 2 and the Constitution.

My daughter responded by calling me into their imail chat on MSN. This was the first time I'd chatted with him in years. I exchanged a few emails with him a few years back but other than that hadn't talked to him since we separated in 1989. And instead of being friendly he was attacking me and threatening to sue. And he claimed to be paying child support even though we didn't receive it. Hmmm.

Then a few days later I imailed him, we got through some anger and eventually agreed to work together for our kids' best interest and not to fight and sue each other in court. So I went to see a family law attorney in a town two hours distant from our home. Then I wanted to imail him to tell him what I found out, and discovered he's blocked me on MSN.

So this is Bewilderment Avenue. I've got no idea why he's cut off communication but I will guess it has more to do with his own failings that with ours. And by the way, the Family Support department says it hasn't received that child support he claims he sent and they're doing the research to see if it went to a different county or to the state.